You have "friends" and then you have f r i e n d s. Lately I've been starting to doubt who my real friends are. Really doubt. No questions, no nothing. Talking behind my back like we still were 7 years old. No I'm happy for you. No interest at all. My life is way different now than it was 6 months ago, but I'm still the same person. It's just me. I think I'm gonna think this through for real this time, about who my real friends are, so that I can concentrate on them and give a shit about the rest. The only thing that scares me is that when I've done that, I will not have many friends left, not many at all, but then I will know for sure that those few people are my real friends, and I rather have a few f r i e n d s than lots and lots of "friends". I don't care if people don't like me, if they don't like my "new" life or whatever, but when those people are your friends, or the ones you thought were your friends, it hurts, big time. Maybe if I keep telling myself that I don't care, I'll actually start believing it. I will miss you, but I have something so much better than all of you waiting for me.
It might sound a bit corny, but I'm not gonna apologize for myself anymore. It hurts me to say all of this but it's true.
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*hugs tightly*
ReplyDeleteSo hold on to the ones that really care, 'cause in the end they'll be the only ones there.
ReplyDeleteyou are most definitely one of my few f r i e n d s, even after so little time. love you x
ReplyDeleteand you are most definetly one of mine! love you too!
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